22/06/2008(Sunday)
maybe this is last time I write my blog…so maybe this post will very long…2day is my school ‘‘kompleksi day’’…no fun de…very boring de…after tat I go 2 cut my hair…haiz…very angry lo…my hair 被发型师剪坏…very angry lo…haiz…em…de xiang,sory…yesterday I realy very moodless…sory arh…dun angry la…n u(mkcy) y u so 迟钝 de?...love some 1 wan resson de meh?...就是爱你...haiz…
彩虹-哪里有彩虹告诉我,能不能把我的愿望还给我,为什么天这么安静,所有云都跑到我这里,有没有口罩一个给我,释怀说了太多就成真不了,也许时间是一种解药,也是我现在正服下的毒药,看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着,你的身影这么近我却抱不到,没有地球太阳还是会绕,没有理由我也能自己走,你要离开我知道很简单,你说依赖是我们的阻碍,就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱,当作我最后才明白
擦肩而过-我爱着谁,爱到我有点醉,告诉我你是谁,能够把我让我变不对,你不会累,但我却爱你爱得好累,从没有为了谁,不顾安危付出一切,站在这平衡点,我还是觉得有点危险,或许是看不见,只能够靠感觉,他不会是个好男人,也不会是个好情人,你对我说我们只是擦肩而过,好的男人有那么多,少了他的日子也能过,我不会再让你寂寞,也不会让你更难过,你听我说要好好学着去生活,就算未来有多少错,至少还有我的问候,我的温柔陪你度过,你听我说,你不要这么做,你不要看着我,说你经知道怎么做,你很难受,我愿意陪你一起承受,只要你不怕痛,再多坎坷我都陪你走,站在这平衡点,我还是觉得有点危险,或许是看不见,只能够靠感觉,他不会是个好男人,也不会是个好情人,你对我说我们只是擦肩而过,好的男人有那么多,少了他的日子也能过,我不会再让你寂寞,也不会让你更难过,你听我说要好好学着去生活,就算未来有多少错,至少还有我的问候,我的温柔陪你度过,他不会是个好男人,也不会是个好情人,你对我说我们只是擦肩而过,好的男人有那么多,少了他的日子也能过,我不会再让你寂寞,也不会让你更难过,你听我说要好好学着去生活,就算未来有多少错,至少还有我的问候,我的温柔陪你度过,就算未来有多少错,至少还有我的问候,我的温柔陪你度过
等待-我守候在你家的门外,整个晚上都不离开,我想你靠在我的胸怀,我要将感觉留到every night,走在吵闹拥挤的人海,我想要好好感觉你的存在,望着遥远灰色的星海,一个人孤独的发呆,我依然还在等待,等待你会明白,一颗坚强的心在等你回来,风在吹让他擦去我脸上的泪,不要以为我真的无所谓,我依然还在等待,等待你会明白,一颗坚强的心在等你回来,不怕累只要我的身边有你陪,请你相信我是真的不后悔
洋葱-如果你眼神能够为我,片刻的降临,如果你能听到,心碎的声音,沉默的守护着你,沉默的等奇迹,沉默的让自己,像是空气,大家都吃着聊着笑着,今晚多开心,最角落里的我,笑得多合群,盘底的洋葱像我,永远是调味品,偷偷的看着你,偷偷的隐藏着自己,如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心,会发现你会讶异,你是我最压抑,最深处的秘密,如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心,你会鼻酸你会流泪,只要你能听到我,看到我的全心全意,听你说你和你的他们,暧昧的空气,我和我的绝望,装得很风趣,我就样一颗洋葱,永远是配角戏,多希望能与你有一秒,专属的剧情
痴心绝对-想用一杯latte把你灌醉,好让你能多爱我一点,暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉,早有人陪的你永远不会,看见你和他在我面前,证明我的爱只是愚昧,你不懂我的那些憔悴,是你永远不曾过的体会,为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解,我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切,你又狠狠逼退我的防备,静静关上门来默数我的泪,明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会,我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天,直到那一天你会发现,真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲,看见你和他在我面前,证明我的爱只是愚昧,你不懂我的那些憔悴,是你永远不曾过的体会,明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会,我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天,直到那一天你会发现,真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲,曾经我以为我自己会后悔,不想爱得太多痴心绝对,为你落第一滴泪,为你作任何改变,也唤不回你对我的坚决,为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解,我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切,你又狠狠逼退我的防备,静静关上门来默数我的泪,明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会,我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天,直到那一天你会发现,真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲,直到那一天你会发现,真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
all this song is meaning of me 2 u n 说中我的心里话…hope u understand…T_T…wht ever u say…I oso will wait u…cz I still loving u…understand?...为了你我真的可疑放弃所有一切… maybe this is last time I write my blog…cz I dun wan 破坏你的感情…n u no need say sory 2 me de…this is I wan de…so blog…tata la…T_T...
6/22/2008
maybe this is last time I write my blog…
6/20/2008
MABUK DAY...haha...
chi tan chong de chi tan(so special!!!)
so crazy...many beer...haha...
mabuk de me...haha...so red my face...hehe...
6/19/2008
心痛 DAY...HAIZ...
19/06/2008(thursday)
haiz...2day 8 school very sad...cz i suddenly remanber last time hw i n she...haiz...so sad...last time with she i feel very very very happy...bt nw leh?...my heart BROKEN...haiz...oso no use de la...haiz...plus yesterday xiao hei find me...n ask me ''last time u very sad is becoz she ma?''...bt i answer he ''NO LA''...haiz...then i langsung no answer he wht...dun care it la...haiz...try 2 4gt she la...haiz...nw i only can wait she nia n 须其自然...haiz...2day fang tze no say sory 2 she...bt 2mr he will say de...hahaha...haiz...y RJ say them no will longer de?...nw i realy hope them can longer lo...i dun wan she same like me as nw...haiz...this feeling realy very 难受...haiz...bt i oso wan couple with she...haiz...very 矛盾...haiz...
6/18/2008
finally fang tze lose liao...wahaha...
18/06/2008(Wednesday)
finally fang tze lose 2 vivian liao…cz last time them 打赌…if fang tze bi exam gt A1 then Vivian wan kiss he…bt if fang tze bi exam no gt A1 then fang tze wan go upstay 大声say sory 2 she…hehe…2day we all knw our bi gt hw much…fang tze…fang tze only gt 66 mark(B1)…wahaha…fang tze lose liao…2mr wait 2 watch nia…haha…
TUESDAY!!!
17/06/2008(Tuesday)
I hate this Tuesday…cz almost every Tuesday evening hv meeting 4 interect…this meeting very fun n gek…haha…cz can c them 吵架…bt oso waste my time 2 go there nia…u knw y I hate Tuesday ma?...cz she oso interect club de…sian 到死arh…always c she…I realy dun knw hw 2 face she…last time she always lie us she wan change school oready…tat time I realy hope she dun change school la…bt nw leh?...she dun wan change school liao…will stay 8 this school…kesian arh…time I dun wan she change school bt she wan change school…nw I wan she change school bt she dun wan change…haiz…I dun wan face she arh…dun wan c her face arh…其实我真的很想要见她…haiz…I realy 口是心非…haiz…she choose who be her bf then who lo…cant force de…hope the kk boy can gv she 幸福la…whtever she choose who I oso will 祝them 幸福快乐和支持她…n whtever hw I oso still loving she n waiting she…haiz…cant put down she…cant 4gt she…
A stupian week…
10/6/2008(Tuesday)
tat day 8 school very fun…cz we gek she…say she cheap…hehe…bt after gek she I will feel 心痛…haiz…y I still love she kah?...haiz…y I cant 4gt she kah?...haiz…I wan 2 4gt she arh!!!...tat day aaron n fonman hole day 8 school gek fang tze…gek fang tze oso = gek me…haiz…够du lan eh…n fonman write a world’’kk zai’’ 8 the 布告板…when I c it I only hit the布告板…bt fang tze leh use the papan hit the布告板到一个大洞…hehe…so fun…:-P
11/6/2008(Wednesday)
tat day we continue say she cheap…hehe…dun knw y I will feel 快感when I say she cheap…bt I oso will feel 心痛…haiz…realy 矛盾…haiz…n tat day we 被 many people scold…hehe…cz we say she cheap…she ever think y we will say she cheap?...u all wan knw y we call she cheap ma?...cz we lose then the kk zai…fang tze wait 4 year…me leh…I wait she half of year…we oso lose 2 kk zai only 2 day nia…最长给他们 1 week nia la…n them only knw each other 1 day nia then go out 8 midnite…only them 2 person nia…haiz…bt nw I won call she cheap anymore start nw…cz like a kid…n when I say she cheap I will 心痛…haiz…I still loving she…haiz…n I call she cheap is try 2 put down she…bt nw I knw liao…say she cheap oso no use de la…nw I cant put down n more 关心 she n love she…haiz…
12/06/2008(Thursday)
yeah…hv half of a year again I wan birthday liao…hehe…so long time again…hehe…haiz…I hate my m3 teacher…cz she cut my paper 2 mark…she cut 34 mark o…so many mark lo…waliao eh …u knw y she cut my mark…cz she knw I gv answer 2 fonman…haiz…fonman oso 被 teacher cut mark…bt only cut 6 mark nia…arh…不甘心 arh…if I no 被 teacher cut my mark ah then I will gt 80 o…A1 o…nw leh?...only gt 59 nia..A1 变成 C1…waliao eh…haiz...sian arh…ohya…she say she never 4 gv fang tze liao…TANIAH kepada fang tze…I oso wan like tat lo…cz I dun knw hw 2 face she…haiz…fang tze 8 our heart he is a tua kang lao or 坏人…so every 1 hate he n scold him more then me…haha…me leh?...every 1 knw I hv say she cheap…haiz...it becoz I’m gud person…hehe…wht I do them oso cant c it de…做好的他看不到做坏的他也看不到…haiz…aiya…lazy liao arh…
13/06/2008(Friday)
nw I 越来越hate ah tai…y he so 38 de?...always bising about she…sian arh…haiz…dun knw y 2day I always 想 she only…haiz…cant put it down…haiz…many 理由 I can put down she n gv up 2 waiting she…cz nw she with the kk zai liao,she like a 大小姐,must listen wht she say n many 缺点 agian…bt…bt only 1 理由罢了 can let me cant put down she…is I still loving she…haiz…so stupian kah?...haiz…现在幸福留给他们伤悲留给自己…haiz…hope them can 幸福快乐 la…2day hole day I very miss she n 想 she…listen song oso will 想到she…do wht oso will 想到…haiz…I think only hv 1 Idea can let me no love she again,can put down she,gv up waiting she n no more想she…the idea is 自我摧眠…haiz…only hv tat idea nia…haiz…
6/08/2008
unlucky day!!!
tat day is unlucky day...haiz...tat day i ply basket ball LOSE,ply snooker oso LOSE,my eye kena basket ball hit,my tuo xie bei my friend long huai n my zi jian tuan diao...haiz...5 unlucky thing happen in 1 day...haiz...ohya...n tat day i kena my friend gek me n scold me...haiz...i oready moodless n very sad...them wan batu api again...haiz...useless de all there friend!...haiz...won an wei me de...wan gek me n scold me again...haiz...zhen de you gou shou de...haiz...i with sherealy like 1 song...the song name''擦肩而过''...haiz...
after de me
05/06/2008(thursday)
haiz...tat day i dun knw y i moodless...maybe is about she gua...haiz...all my friend yang knw them all 安慰 me...them all say same thing nia...oso say 8 this world hv many girl better than she...haiz...i oso knw la...bt i realy cant put down she...say put down she is easyly...bt do it is very very very hard...say put down she then will put down she easyly meh?u all think who am i o?r ply boy?haiz...我拿得起但是我放不下...i'm no r boy la de...拿得起放不下...haiz...when i c my friend yang hv bf/gf...i will feel very sad...i realy hope i hv xin fu...hv gf...bt nw leh?haiz...
6/03/2008
all my xin sheng 8 last week...haiz...very sad...
28/05/2008(wednesday)
tat day i very happy...cz i can go 2 kk with my friend...i wan go 2 shoping,c girl n 散心 de...bt yesterday(27/05/2008) hv some thing happen...haiz...tat nite i sleep 8 fonman's house n i hear fonman say jojo like she...when i hear it i think maybe i will lose in this game...n i oso hear wht fang tze tell fonman...haiz...so tat nite i cant sleep...til 1.30am just i sleep n time 6am i wan wake up...cz tat day we wan go 2 kk liao...hehe...tat nite we wan meet fang tze them...cz them oso 8 kk...them follow the school trip go kk...she oso hv follow the school trip...bt she go 2 eat sushi with jojo...haiz...when i hear it i terus jelous...haiz...at time 8.30pm jojo them come 2 find us...oso tat time we wan go bck hotel...wan rest liao...cz very tired...n then jojo wan song she go bck her hotel...bt she dun wan...she wan shoping again...so jojo terus du lan she n plus the cap jojo buy 4 she oready very teruk...when i hear she dun wan go bck 1st...i terus worried about she...bt oso no use de la...haiz...when we go bck 2 hotel we terus go 2 bath...after bath we berjudi 8 fonman's room...when we finish 赌博 is time 12am liao...just kok yan n jia wei come bck...we so worried about them lo...wan say she agian meh?根加 worried she lo...haiz...
29/05/2008(thursday)
this we morning go 2 ''caber x''ply game...ply game agian...haiz...ntg 2 say...this day no hv special thg happen...this day hole day we only ply nia...sian arh...bt i oso worried about she la...very miss she lo...all the kk girl i watch...no 1 is better then she...haiz...y i will like tat...haiz...
30/05/2008(friday)
this day is a last day we stay 8 kk...本来 we 8 kk wan 4day 3nite de...bt nw we all cant tahan liao...cz we hv problem of $money$...this day moring i had phone she...bt sekejap nia...haiz...cz i realy dun knw wan say wht with she...haiz...after i phone she then i go 2 fonmen's room...8 tat time fang tze phone fonman...i oso hear wht them say...haiz...so pain my heart when i hear it...haiz...oso no use de la...haiz...this nite i go find fang tze sms...n he oso tell me all wht happen 2 she n the kk zai...the kk zai drive his car fetch she go out 喝茶 8 midnite...3am them just come bck...only them 2 person nia...n the kk zai every nite find she 聊天(curi2 聊天 lagi tu n 8 midnite again)...n them nw keep sms n phone each other...haiz...i very sad,pain,hurt n angry when fang tze tell me...haiz...if i c it i think i will more sad,pain,hurt n angry then nw...haiz...i realy wanna 2 scold she...bt i no hv the 权力 2 scold she...i only is she friend nia...haiz...she realy wan becareful lo...she 竟然 go out with the kk zai...them only knw each other how many day nia...so dangerous de ma....cz we all dun knw the kk zai is gud or bad de....n go out until midnite....i realy very worried about she lo...haiz...oso no use de la...haiz...
31/05/2008(saturday)
this day i dun knw y i will early 2 wake up...bt i very tired...cz i just come bck 4m kk...2day no hv anything happen...only my heart very pain n hurt...haiz...
01/06/2008(sunday)
this day i realy wanna go 2 church 2 scold she...bt 8 the last i oso no hv go...cz i no r she bf...how i can scold she...haiz...no hv 权力 2 scold she...only can say it inside my heart nia...haiz...this nite i go find my 堂姐 sms...ask she this holiday hv go 2 c grandmother bo...haiz...my 堂姐 oso knw i 追着 she...so my 堂姐 ask me she accept me liao ma...haiz...when i hear it...my heart plus hurt again...haiz...nw my heart very pain,hurt n sad...so i 请 my 堂姐 2 teach me hw...haiz...
02/06/2008(monday)
this day is my hole life very very very pain day...this afternoon i hv ask she...who r the kk zai...she say only a friend...ngam king wor...diao...ngam til go out 8 midnite meh n wan curi2 聊天 ?haiz...when i knw oready then i go tell fang tze...so fang tze ask me ''u believe she meh?''...then i reply he ''i no believe she...bt i oso wan believe she arh...havent we couple we oready no believe she liao...wan say agian meh if we realy couple''...so i believe she...bt 8 this nite fang tze suddenly say she couple with the kk zai liao...1st 1st i dun believe wht fang tze say de...bt it is true de...T-T...haiz...this afternoon i just ask she...she say is a friend nia...bt 8 nite leh?oready them couple...haiz...when i hear it i terus 崩溃...n my heart very very pain,hurt n sad...haiz...so hard 2 believe lo...hw long them knw each another o?haiz...hope the kk zai can gv she 幸福 la...won ply ply with she...hope them can 幸福快乐...haiz...T-T...
03/06/2008(tuesday)
last nite i cant sleep...n i cry a hole nite...haiz...so i dun knw y i 3:30 am i message she''oso gud de...i can learn 1 thing 4m the kk zai...追 1 girl only wan 1 week nia...n i oso can knw all ur 人格...say wht still loving lk...wtf la...all is lie me de...n i oso 对自己太失望 liao...will love this kind the girl''...haiz...i realy 太过 sad then i will say like this gua...so moring i sms she again...''感情是不可以勉强的,你的幸福是你自己来选着的,我相信你的眼光,hope the kk zai can gv u 幸福...''...bt say realy la...she always lie me...say wht loving lk arh,less use phone arh,with the kk zai only r friend arh...diao...i change myself is 为了 u...u r my targt...no targt no life=no u no life...i 够想 go 2 death...if human no hv feeling...i think will better...if my heart is cool blooder,then gud lo...no will feel pain,hurt n sad...T-T...1st time i cry for girl lo...n many time again i cry for she...haiz...like 2 child...nw i say wht oso no use liao de la...haiz...T-T...8 nite i,jia wei,gary,jojo,fonman n aaron go 2 ktv sing song...so happy ba...hehe...bt my heart oso very hurt again...haiz...after tat i go 2 fonman's house drink,谈心事 n sleep 8 his house...we drink the ''XO''...so gek ba...haiz...i oso cry 8 tis nite...haiz...nw i won gv up de...i will wait she again...hope 1 day i can 感动 she...gambateh...
04/06/2008(wednesday)
yesterday i sleep 8 fonman's house...em...time 4am we sleep...then i 10am i wake up...the fonman continue sleep agian...n i write my daily is nw...time 2:3o pm...i hope ltr no hv any thing happen la...cz i dun wan write daily agian(2day)...nw my heart oso very pain,hurt n sad...n i will continue waiting she de...gambateh...hope 1 day i can 感动 u...
